Toddler Breastfeeding

about me

Wife, Mom to three kids, Software Developer, Business Owner, Karaoke Enthusiast. Breastfeeding my kids is important to me.

Quitting

I’ve breastfed three kids for over five years. My last childless days I spent reading the Womanly Art of Breastfeeding. I’ve read La Leche League articles and KellyMom’s website many times over. I know the WHO and AAP breastfeeding recommendations and I know my rights in the States. I’m not successful because I’ve studied. I’m successful because I did it.

There was a moment when Chase was a few days old that could have set me on a path to a very different future. My nipples were cracked and bleeding. I held two bags of frozen peas and a bloody nipple shield. The bright light was burning my eyes - it was 3am.

I felt the tug of easy street. How could nature have produced such a broken system? Why was breastfeeding so hard - so painful - and exhausting? I could have asked my husband to prepare a bottle of formula. I could have rolled over and slept while he fed the baby. For a tiny moment I looked down that street towards bottles and formula, pacifiers, canned baby food, goo packets.. But I continued breastfeeding. Not for Chase. Not for health. Not for economy. For pride.

I would not become a quitter! I told people I would breastfeed. I’ve had: raw nipples, sleepless nights, an unconsolable baby, latch issues, engorgement, lopsided boobs, and leaks from unmentionable places. Being a Mom comes with a personalized list of inconveniences.

I, can breastfeed. So can you.

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Addiction

I’ve gained weight. I lay down a lot. I’m not able to help with the dishes or the laundry as much anymore. Sometimes I have trouble sleeping at night. There’s long stretches of time when I’m in the room or on the couch, or even on the floor. I don’t get outside as much as I used to.

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Translations

I’ve been hesitant to translate my software. I don’t know anyone that can tell me my translations are good. I don’t want to end up on a top ten worst Korean translations list. I don’t want to send the message that I don’t care enough to sound better than Google Translate.

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